Sunday, May 19, 2013

Spiritual Explosion


 
April 8, 2013

 
Dear Family,

This past week has been really spiritually uplifting and somewhat challenging at the same time. We had so many meetings, exchanges and planning to do that it ended up meaning that we didn't work in our area as much. The meetings were so packed with revelation that it made me exhausted each night....I just felt like a spiritual explosion went off multiple times this week. It was hard to collect my thoughts because there was so much to take in. On Monday night and Tuesday morning we went to zone leaders’ council. We've been one time before, so President Castro just taught us a lot and basically was raising our vision of the mission so we can raise the vision of the other missionaries. Then, on Wednesday we had dinner at the Castros' and then had a meeting to plan for the Sisters' Training Meeting that we're having on Tuesday. That was a really fun night. I just love being around the Castros so much. That meeting was especially great because we were just sitting there at the Castros' table with the other traveling sisters and we were receiving revelation for the sisters in the mission. I can't explain how cool it was. The spirit there was so strong and the love in that room was just as strong. I felt very connected with the other sisters and President and Sister Castro. I repeatedly felt that the Lord is very aware of me and that He is guiding me to understand, more fully, the things that I need to do to reach my potential as a missionary. I'm really grateful for the guidance that He has given me through the Holy Ghost and the trust that He has put in me to not only teach the people in this area but also to be a leader to the other sisters. I know that He is here laboring with me and that He loves me. I know He loves me.

This week we taught Lisa, Jose, Asuncion, Brother McIntosh, Julia, the Evangelistas, and Richard.

We had a really great lesson with Jose. We met him at the church and Sister Ruiz came with us. She's great! I love having her at lessons because she has so many great life experiences to draw from and she's good at explaining things simply. Plus, she's super excited about the gospel and you can't help but be excited, too, when she's around. At the beginning of the lesson we talked about prayer and receiving an answer about what we've been teaching. We asked what he feels about the things that we've shared. He said that he hasn't gotten a sure answer, but he feels like what he's been learning is right. The thing about Jose is that he is a very good listener. He doesn't let you know that he really cares that much, but he's taking in everything that we teach. I really feel like he has felt the Spirit, or I know that he would've told us that he doesn't want to meet with us anymore. He's young and if he really didn't care he wouldn't spend another minute of his time listening to someone talking about Jesus Christ. I'm excited for him to progress. I feel that it will be slow and we'll really need patience, but I can really see what he can become. The saddest part is that he is 27. That will be yet ANOTHER investigator that we will need to pass off to the young single adult ward elders. That can be hard. I'll be honest, that's been really hard for me especially in this area. We've found some amazing investigators that I have loved so much...and then we had to pass them off to the other missionaries. However, I know that it's what's best for them.

Well, we had our first exchange this week. We went to Dos Vientos, in Newbury Park, to work with Sister Tagaloa and Sister Randall. I worked with Sister Randall for the day and we worked hard. She is a 19 year-old missionary! She's from Centerville, Utah, and her twin sister is also serving a mission in the California Riverside mission. Pretty great, right!? Well, I wanted her to see what is expected in this mission, so we were on the go the entire day. I wasn't sure if she would keep up, but she did really great. We didn't have any actual "sit down" lessons, which was sad. I wanted to see her in that setting, but we did have a lot of opportunities to talk to people. That was good because her goal was to teach more in declarations. She said that she testifies a lot, but isn't always teaching the restoration. She's a brand new missionary, so that's understandable, but I was very impressed with how well she did. She stepped up and took the lead on talking to a lot of people. I think she was surprised at how much I let her talk. I just waited until the very last second when people were about to shut the door and then I would pick up where she had been. I really felt like it was important to help her see how qualified she already is. I knew that from companionship study with her. She was really good at teaching the restoration to me, so I wanted her to recognize that she can do that same thing with people out on the street. I talked to her about what she wants as a missionary and how she can reach the goals she has. She's going to be really great. She's actually a lot like me. She demands a lot from herself, so I talked to her about patience. She needs to remember that she is a new missionary and that she can't compare herself to other, more seasoned, missionaries. That's what made things hard for me - I would compare myself to sister Tippetts. When I finally got over that, I felt so much better and I grew so much more. Anyway, Sister Randall is doing great. She just needs to smooth out those "new missionary kinks" and she'll be ready to go. I'm just very impressed with her.

Well, I don't know what else to say. I'm having a hard time collecting my thoughts right now for some reason....

I love you! Sorry this letter was kind of lame.

Love,
Sister Bennett


 
                                Exchange with Sister Randall
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
                                                                           

Please....Just Get in the Water


April 1, 2013

Dear Fam,

This week was a stretching week for me, personally. I felt a little bit overwhelmed and apprehensive at the beginning, thinking about all that is to come for me throughout the remainder of my service as a missionary. Time is going by so quickly, and I want to be able to do all that the Lord would ask of me. I was sad to say goodbye to Sister Lillywhite. We had become so comfortable in our teaching and had seen so many miracles together in these past three months, not to mention that she became one of my closest friends. The way that Sister Lillywhite works is inspiring. She truly came to the understanding of what it means to represent our Lord, and Savior, Jesus Christ. She did even more, however, than understand, she became. Everything she did was to fulfill her purpose as a missionary, to bless the lives of those in her stewardship. She really instilled that in me - we are always representatives of Jesus Christ. I am just so grateful for her and for the example she set for me and especially for the sisters in this mission. I believe that she is a big part of why the culture of the mission, among the sisters, has changed so much in a positive way. 

As I've pondered on the things that she's taught me, I recognized the magnitude of my calling as a traveling sister. The way that I affect these sisters, ripples outward to their future companions, the members in the wards that they serve in, to the other missionaries they serve near, and especially to those that they teach. I take it very seriously, and I've seen the Lord work through me to help those I serve, and He will continue to do so. This past week was overwhelming because I felt that so many more weaknesses were coming to my fore-vision and I didn't realize that they were there. When we had a meeting this past Thursday with all of the traveling trainers and the assistants, Elder Cary shared something that brought me a lot of comfort, and it came from a scripture that had previously impacted me and that I've held onto for my entire mission. The scripture is Ether 12:27 and I have reflected very often on a time during my very first transfer when I read that scripture and it gave me peace. Elder Cary shared that in that scripture it teaches us that when we are recognizing our weaknesses, we have come unto Christ - "if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness." I believe that I have come closer to Jesus Christ in this last transfer. I've had a few experiences that have really helped me feel the power of His atonement in my life and I've felt encircled in His arms. I didn't realize how truly grateful I am for Him. At transfer meeting this past Tuesday, I was pondering on my testimony of Jesus Christ as the departing missionaries went up one by one to share theirs, and I felt the Spirit as if it was washing over my body. I just felt this deep, potent gratitude for my Savior. He did so much for me, and I'm grateful to put a cross on my back and share His gospel with others whom He has sacrificed for. It's a blessing to be able to meet people on the street and declare to them that He lives and that I KNOW it. 

I am also very excited to be working with Sister Burwell. She is amazing. She's so full of energy, and especially, love for this work. She really wants to learn and grow and I hope that I can help her do so this transfer. I have a great deal of respect for her and I really love her. I want to help her reach her goals and improve in the areas that she'd like to. She has talked a lot about how she is ready to learn from me. I'm not sure what there is to learn, but I'm ready to learn together from the experiences we'll have this transfer. The sisters are going to love going on exchanges with her and she'll be a great influence on them. 

I got to see Brenna on Tuesday at transfer meeting. I emailed her on Monday and told her she HAD to bring the Moorpark sisters, since they were required to get a ride to Ventura anyway. When we got to the stake center on Tuesday morning there was Brenna in her car with Sister Stoker. I was soooo happy to see her, seriously. She said that it was funny when she got my email because she had already planned to bring them. Same mind. She just seems like she's grown up so much since I was in Moorpark. I guess being called to serve a mission will help do that. I had to go to a meeting, so I wasn't able to talk to her very long when I first saw her, but she just made me so pumped and excited for the day! When we got done with our meeting, we walked into the chapel and all of the missionaries were already seated. When I sat down I was trying to figure out where she went. I got a little nervous because I thought maybe she went somewhere and was going to miss out on transfer meeting. Then I saw her, she was sitting in the row with all of the missionaries. She fit right in. Honestly, that made me a little bit emotional. It was so weird. I just felt so glad that I met Brenna. She's the best friend I've made on my mission, and I am so excited for her to have these experiences that I'm having. Now I know why Brandice always wanted me to serve a mission so badly. I never want anyone to miss out on the opportunity of serving a mission because of how sacred my mission is to me. I'm so proud of Brenna and the person she is. I feel like she's just an old friend that I've been reunited with, and I'm grateful for the impact she has had on me. She's helped me to open up more and to go forward in life without fear. She has a really great perspective and that's something that I've definitely gained from my friendship with her. President Castro actually had her come up and bear her testimony, since he had heard from her two nights previous at her stake conference. She did great and the best part was when she told all of the missionaries what I had told her - "obedience is bliss." That-a-girl. I've taught her well. ;)  After transfer meeting, we went to Chipotle to eat with Brenna and the Moorpark sisters. I loved every minute talking about how she's preparing to go to the temple and for her mission. The gospel is so great. It brings people together on such a deeper level than the world can ever try to manipulate and recreate. 

This week we taught Julia, the Biglers, the Evangelistas, Brother Dumond, Brother Wages, the Heaths, Sister Rous, Jessica, Lena, Bob, Lizette, and Cryshauna. 

Let me share a great miracle that Sister Lillywhite and I had on our last day together. I'll start about 5 weeks ago, at the beginning of last transfer. We were walking down by the harbor and were talking about how we could do better in talking to everyone. We made a resolve that we'd talk to everyone no matter if they were getting into their car or walking into their house - we were going to stop them and talk to them about the gospel. Right after we made that decision, there was a man walking down the street....so we talked to him. His name was Carlos and we taught him about prophets and the restoration of Christ's church. He had a lot of questions about prophets and asked "What have these modern prophets brought to us." Hmmmm, we had just the thing. We taught him about the Book of Mormon and he was very receptive. He said that he would like a copy. We gave him one and asked when we would be able to meet with him again. Sadly, he told us "I'm sure we'll see each other again down here" and he went on his way. Sister Lillywhite and I both didn't want to push him, so we, a little bummed, continued on our way. Well, I really wanted to meet Carlos again, because I really felt that he was being prepared for us to teach him, so Sister Lillywhite and I prayed throughout that entire transfer that we would see Carlos again. Last Monday, Sister Lillywhite and I were eating yogurt with the traveling hermanas and discussing ideas that we would want to share with the sisters if we have another sisters conference soon. We were sitting on a bench that looked out over the ocean. We were going to take a picture, so as Sister Lillywhite looked around for someone to ask to take our picture she saw Carlos sitting behind us! All four of us got up and went to talk to him. We declared to him again and shared a little bit about the plan of salvation. To my dismay, he again wouldn't give us his address or set up a time to meet with us! I couldn't believe it. I felt the Spirit just as strong this time as I had the first time we met him. He was wearing the same clothes as he was the first time, so we decided that he may possibly be homeless, and that might have been the reason that he didn't want to share where he lived. I will be continuing to pray that we can meet him again. That was a huge miracle that we found him and talked to him again! What a blessing! 

Julia got baptized this past Saturday! It was the most interesting baptism I've been a part of and I'm sure that won’t change throughout the course of my mission. She was SO excited when we got to the church and I was possibly as excited as she was. Then the baptismal service began. She still seemed really happy and excited, but as the time got closer for her to get baptized I realized that she kept looking at her mom with a very scared look on her face. Well, the time of truth came - she needed to get into the baptismal font to get baptized. Julia doesn't like to be in front of people, so having everyone there to support her made her super nervous. We could hear her in the bathroom crying and telling her mom that she didn't want to do it. I was getting pretty nervous. I was thinking "Oh great! She's going to back out! What are we going to do?" Then the thought came to my mind that we should just close the folding curtains that are in front of the font. Sister Burwell and I went into the bathroom and told Julia that we would close the curtains and just the Elders would have to come in so they could be witnesses. She calmed down and decided that would be a good idea, because she wanted to be baptized...she just didn't want everyone looking at her. Sister Burwell and I went back out and explained that Julia was just too nervous to have everyone watching her and that we would be closing the curtains to do it. They all thought that was fine and were very understanding. Sister Burwell and I, of course, got to see her get baptized, and I am so grateful for that experience. The Savior didn't have a beautiful baptismal service with all of His close friends and family watching Him, but He was baptized to be obedient to His Father. I know that the most important person was there at that baptism and saw Julia make that covenant and was proud - her Heavenly Father. That experience helped me gain a perspective of why we do the things that we do. It isn't for other people, to please them or make ourselves look good. We should do things to bring our Father in Heaven joy. Yesterday for the 3rd hour of church, the stake president spoke about how we can bring God joy. I know that when we follow the example of Jesus Christ, we can bring joy to our Heavenly Father. I also know that when we strive to bring Him joy, we will feel more joy than possible when we are only striving to bring joy to ourselves. That was a great baptism. I am so happy for Julia and what this means for her in her life and I'm grateful that I was able to be there to experience it and learn the lessons that I learned. 

It was a wonderful, growing week. I'm grateful for the Lord and His love for me. I'm grateful for the way that He continues to shape and mold me into the person He knows that I can become. 

I love you all. Thank you so much for your support. I know that I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my family, and I'm just so grateful to be a missionary. I will be forever grateful for the sacrifices you've all made so that I can be here today. I love you.

Sister Bennett 



P.S. - Did you update the blog mom? :) 
P.P.S. - I attached a picture from Julia's baptism
 
 
 
 

 
Farewell Sister Lillywhite

 
With Brenna Lutz after Transfer Meeting

 
Julia's Baptism
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Friday, May 17, 2013

Step Up or Get OUT!


 
March 25, 2013

 
Dear Family!

When you read this email you may all be together! That's great! I'm so excited for Jordan and Amanda to get sealed in the temple this week. I am so grateful for Amanda and how good she has been to Jordan. He's a redhead, so he deserves someone great and Amanda is definitely great. She is a really great example of patience and faith...so it seems to me, at least. I'm excited to have a new addition to our perfectly imperfect family ;). Congratulations to you both! Wahhhhooo! 

We got a new missionary from temple square this week, but we also lost one. We said goodbye to Sister Lupashko on Wednesday morning. We, Sister Lillywhite and I, drove her to the airport early that morning. She's now back at temple square and her replacement is Sister Di Liberto. She is from Italy! She's amazing. We did some training with her when she first arrived and were able to drive her to her area. That gave us the opportunity to get to know her better and answer some questions. Sisters from temple square are amazing, so I'm grateful to have her in our mission. Plus, I'm so excited to get to go on exchanges with her this transfer. 

Well, we got our "transfer calls" this morning. My new companion is Sister Burwell. She is from Pennsylvania. I love her. I've worked around her a lot and I always wished that we would become companions at some point. Now my prayers are answered and we're going to be traveling together! That's so great!!!

On Wednesday, Sister Di Liberto was doing some paper work before we took her to her area so President Castro had me come into his office and we had an interview. He basically talked to me about my role as a traveling sister. He gave me a lot of good counsel and said that there is a lot riding on me and how I lead the sisters. Basically, he said it's time to step up. Yep. He talked a lot about how this is the moment that the Lord has been preparing me for and that it's my time to "shine." He also thought that I had said I wanted to go to the Bakersfield Mission. I almost threw up!! AH! But he said that is a good goal, it's ambitious, but the Lord has more in store for me than that. Man...President Castro is like a magic crystal ball. He basically KNOWS my future! I need to know! Haha. Well, you all know what this means....you REALLY have to keep me in your prayers now. Pray extra hard....especially Ammon because he's great. 

Ok, now onto more important things....aka THE PEOPLE AND THE WORK! 

We had a great week! A LOT of miracles! The work in the Second Ward is picking up fast, and I'm super excited about it. I'm sad that I'll be seeing Sister Lillywhite go because we've worked hard here together to get the area to this point that it's at now. I wish she could stay one more transfer and just see all of the fruits of her labors here in Ventura. I guess I'll need to keep her updated! I'm excited that my new companion will be Sister Burwell! I knew it would be her. I'm not sure why, but of course I was trying to think about who it would be and it just made complete sense to me that it would be Sister Burwell. We will have a lot of success together, I already know that. Getting a new companion always makes me excited because there are so many new things to learn from them. I'm excited to recognize the reasons that the Lord would like us to work together and to learn those things that He would have me learn from Sister Burwell. Yess! I'm just so excited for this new transfer! The work is picking up like crazy and I'm so blessed to be a missionary at this time. This is the most exciting time probably in the history of the WORLD to be a missionary! 

This week we taught Lisa, Rita, the Rabagos, Kristyn, Brother Dumond, Jessica, Brother Wages, Cryshauna, Julia, the Heaths, Lena, Sister Rous, Jose, Bob, the Pellums, and the Blanks.

As miracles have been happening here, there are still some hard moments. We had another lesson with Kristyn this week and she just isn't willing to make any commitments. It's heartbreaking to me because I have been there at her home many times when she has felt the Spirit and she knows that she has felt the Spirit. I can't imagine what our Father in Heaven must feel when some of His children get so close but they allow things in the world to keep them from Him. I know that she has a relationship with her Father in Heaven, but I also know that that relationship could be a million times better through the restored gospel of Jesus Christ. That's hard when you realize that you have to let someone go, but trust in the Lord that He will continue to prepare them and give them another chance to have the joy in their lives that you have in your own. Hard. I guess at this point I will just continue to pray for her....Alma 6:6.

We have gotten some great new investigators this week. On Friday we were talking to an investigator, Cryshauna, outside of her apartment and some lady leaned over her balcony and yelled down at us asking "Are you LDS missionaries?!" We answered in the affirmative. Then she told us that she is a member and just moved into that apartment. We told her about church and then continued to teach Cryshauna. As we were talking to Cryshauna, the member's little girls kept coming down the stairs wanting to say "hello" to us. I told them that we would come up and say "hi" when we were done....so they would stop interrupting our lesson. When we finished teaching Cryshauna, we went upstairs and met the Heaths. Sister Heath is a convert and she said she hasn't been going to church that often, but she wants to get back to going regularly. She then said that two of her 5 daughters are not baptized, one of which is 8 and one is 9, and that she would like us to start teaching them this week! We didn't want to so we just left....just kidding! We said, "Great!!" All of them came to church yesterday, including her 14 year old son, and Sister Heath seems very excited to start meeting with us. That was a major miracle and answer to our prayers because the night before I had prayed, before we went to bed, that we would see a great miracle the next day. I prayed that we would find someone new to teach that would get baptized and that would have an open heart to listen to the gospel. Amazing! 

We also had a really neat lesson with a less-active lady, Dawnia, and her two children who aren't baptized. Aubrey is 16 and she is actually deaf and Tyler is 10. Dawnia has been wanting to get back to church. There are two people in the ward who know sign language, but both of them were unavailable. Well, Sister Lillywhite doesn't know sign language either, and I definitely don't know it....so I was praying for the gift of tongues or something. When we got there we told Dawnia that she would need to interpret for us. She wasn't too excited about that because she said she struggles with interpreting. I was thinking "Yeah right, you're her mom. You have to sign all the time with her." Well, she struggled. We weren't sure what to do because Aubrey has no sense of God and who He is. We brought the restoration DVD with us, so we decided we would try that with the subtitles. When we got to the menu we realized that they have the movie in ASL....so there is a man signing with the movie playing in the background. That was such a huge blessing! At the end of the lesson we taught Aubrey how to pray and she gave the closing prayer. That was really neat. I'm really excited to keep teaching them and help their family come in to the church. 

Last note: Yesterday, Bob blessed the sacrament for the first time! It was so great to see him up there. He has changed so much from the time we started teaching him until now. The atonement can really change people's lives. 

Well, new week...new transfer...so much new stuff it's great. I'm excited.

Love,
Sister Bennett 






Tuesday, April 23, 2013

"Look!!!!! It's Sister Missionaries!"


March 18, 2013

Dear People that I am related to and who I love,

That's right - being a sister missionary is like being a celebrity. Seriously. Whenever we see little kids, they freak out and run to say "hi," or they turn to their parents and say, "Look mom!" Just the other night we were in the church and opened the gym door to see who was inside, and these two little girls turn to each other, as the door was closing, and said, "Look! It's the sister missionaries!!" I don't know if elders get the same reaction, but who knows. :)

I can't believe that this is the last week of the transfer! Where has the time gone? I will have to repeat myself, but have been learning so much every week that it seems that it must have been more than 4 weeks that have passed by. That time has flown! That's pretty crazy. I had a neat experience yesterday at church. . . a small, personal experience, but it meant a lot to me. We were in our gospel principles class and the teacher, Sister Overton who served a mission recently with her husband, was teaching about the fall of Adam and Eve. She said that her mission really helped her to understand more about the fall and really about the gospel as a whole. She said that she was forced to gain a better understanding because she was expected to teach people about the gospel. As I sat there, I pondered on my personal understanding of the gospel of Jesus Christ and His atonement before my mission and compared it to where I am now. I had a strong feeling come over me of gratitude and clarity. I realized exactly the same thing that President Castro shared with us today from a quote by Elder Christofferson; "Even the mundane and repetitious can be tiny but significant building blocks that in time establish the discipline and character and order needed to realize our plans and dreams." The knowledge of the gospel that I have now is so much more fulfilling and so much greater than what I had before my mission. I know that came through PRAYERFUL study every single day in which I was guided by the Holy Ghost to understand the things that others needed from me. At times, that one hour of personal study seems small, in all reality I always feel that I need so much more time, but I know that it is the Lord's way and now I can see why. I have been building upon my knowledge "revelation upon revelation, knowledge upon knowledge (D&C 42:61)" over these past 10 months. I'm so grateful for that and especially for the revelation that I gained in church yesterday. 

This week we had our last exchange of the transfer with the sisters in Agoura Hills. I spent the day in Agoura with Sister Burwell and Sister Lupashko. It was a beautiful day in Agoura. It was super sunny outside and it was about 84 degrees. I actually was caught off guard by that and got a little sunburned. . . whoops! It was a really fun day, as far as the work goes. We talked to a lot of people. Sadly, all of the people we had lessons with cancelled on us, but we still got to teach one investigator and we talked to tons of people on the street as we walked around. I was so excited to get to work with Sister Burwell because we get along so well - she's from Pennsylvania. We worked around each other when I was in Moorpark and she was in Thousand Oaks. I had heard many good things about her, so it was exciting to finally see her in action. She is great! She has a kind of zeal for missionary work that I have honestly never seen. She is just go, go, go. That's definitely my style. I was really impressed with how she literally talks to everyone, no matter what. She's very bold and she isn't afraid to tell anyone that she knows the message of the restored gospel is true. I think my favorite thing about her is how much faith she has in the message. She sometimes can become a bit overbearing/too persistent with people because she knows that if they'll just give us a chance to teach them about the restoration that they'll feel the Spirit and want to learn more. That's one thing that we discussed that she needs to be careful of, because a few people got a bit angry or upset with us because she became a little bit pushy. That's ok though, it's because she loves what she's sharing. Sister Burwell is a bit hard on herself at times, and it reminded me of myself. I think the Lord wanted me to see how Sister Burwell is so I can have a better perspective of myself and so I can help her. She really wants to improve as a missionary and I know that she will because she trusts the Lord to help her. We talked a little bit about teaching people and not just trying to sell a message. She said that is something she's been working on, and I know that if she'll try to connect with people and meet them where they're at that she'll have so much more success. I think she's just a fantastic missionary and with a little refining, she'll be unstoppable.

Agoura Hills
 
 With Sisters Burwell and Lupashko

Sister Lupashko is doing really well, also. She is so great at listening to everything that people have to say rather than listening for a bit, hearing something you can respond to, and then figuring out what to say. She listens the entire time and then responds to them in a very patient and loving manner. I think that people can really tell that she is very interested in them and isn't there to just try to "sell them religion." She didn't get to talk too much because Sister Burwell gets very excited and wants to share a lot. I talked with Sister Lupashko about taking the lead in talking to everyone and stepping in to teach and testify whenever possible. She's a really positive person and I really love her attitude. I'm sad that she is going back to temple square this week because she's such a wonderful missionary. I'm grateful that I was able to work with her twice while she's been here in the Great California Ventura Mission.

This week, in our area, we taught Gabby and Skyler, Jose (twice), Kristyn, Lisa, Rich and Christina, Brother Wages (recent convert), Julia and Daniel, Judy, Sister Ellis (less-active), Richard, Bob, and the Rabagos (less-active).

I'm really excited about teaching Daniel and Julia. Daniel is 12 years old and Julia is 9. They are a part member family. Their mom, Kristi, was less-active for a while but has recently moved in with her mom and dad and has been coming back to church. Daniel and Julia were never baptized and Kristi has received permission from both of their dads for them to learn and be baptized! They are planning on getting baptized on the 30th of March. I'm really excited! They're so fun to teach, because I've never had the opportunity to teach such young people. It really has helped me to simplify the way that I teach, because I have to. They are always so excited when we come over and they just really love missionaries. Julia and her little sister, Alexa (6), always want to hug Sister Lillywhite and me and they always hunt us down at church. That definitely makes us feel appreciated. Anyway, we're excited about teaching them!

We taught Kristyn again this week. That was a disappointing lesson. It seemed like everything was just going wrong. We've felt like we've been making so much progress with Kristyn. She's been learning from missionaries on and off for about two years now. She was finally reading from the Book of Mormon and praying and we felt that in our lessons with her she was getting a lot of answers she was looking for. She's also said, many times, that she feels drawn to the church. Well, when we went over this time it seemed like we had never answered the questions that we had, because she was asking all of the same questions again. It felt like we were back at square one, because she didn't understand why she needed to be baptized again, she hadn't been reading, and she wasn't praying specifically about the message. When we had left her the lesson before, she understood and said she felt really good about everything. She just hasn't been consistent at all with keeping commitments and that's why we have to keep answering the same questions over and over again. She hasn't resolved those concerns herself with the Spirit. This has just helped me realize how important reading the Book of Mormon and praying about it is. As we sat there, the member who came with us, Sister Ruiz, took over the lesson and barely let us speak. That made both of us feel even worse because we didn't get to talk. I just felt really down as I sat there, because I was excited for Kristyn to be getting it before and I just felt powerless in helping her receive the blessings that come through baptism and receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost. When Sister Ruiz finally stopped talking, I was overcome with so much love for Kristyn and expressed that to her. I felt that she needed to know how much her Heavenly Father loves her and I think even more so, I needed to realize that. It made me get over the anger and frustration I was feeling and seek the guidance of the Spirit to know how to help one of His daughters. I don't know what's going to happen with Kristyn, but we're going to do our best to follow the guidance that we receive from the Spirit to know what we need to do for her.

It sounds like life in Minnesota is exciting. You have had snow every time mom emails me, and what a treat it must've been to have Nanner and Eye-liner there with you. Sounds pretty fun! I love you all and hope you have a good week.

Hey Jordan, you're getting married like in a week. That's so weird! Hahahah.

Love,
Sister Bennett









 

Sniffles



March 12, 2013

 
Dear Family,

Ahhhhchoooo! That's me....ALL THE TIME! I think I've developed allergies. Well, really that I have them here because the stuff flying around in the air is different than Utah and Minnesota. Allergies are THE WORST! Now I know what you feel like, mom, when you have them. They just come and go as they please and annoy me. Also, daylight savings. It's great because it's light out longer, but boy it makes it harder to wake up because it's still dark in the morning. Ugh. I always feel like I was hit in the head with bricks when I wake up now. Hahah.

We just had zone conference yesterday at the Camarillo stake center. It was great to see President and Sister Castro there. It seems like it had been forever, which is weird since I'm a traveling sister. I don't know how I made it so long when I was in Moorpark. I just love Sister Castro. She's such a powerful, dignified lady, but she's funny on top of that. We joke a lot together. Yesterday I just felt so much love from both President and Sister Castro as they spoke to us. Overall, it was a really powerful zone conference and I was able to receive a lot of revelation for ways to become a better steward. President talked a lot about stewardship. He shared with us from a talk by Elder Nelson and we read in D&C 104. One thing that really stuck out to me a lot was when President talked about how Christ was the perfect example of stewardship - He was the steward for His father. I know that we are representing Him in our areas, and I want to understand Him better so I can better represent Him. I'll be finishing the Book of Mormon, again, tomorrow, and I plan on studying Christ's atonement as I read through the Book of Mormon again. I was really touched by one of the assistants, Elder Brodie’s, testimony and how I could just feel that his relationship with the Savior has grown greatly on his mission. He is going home on Monday...he extended but it's time for him to go home. I want that. I know that my relationship with Jesus Christ has become stronger, but there is so much more for me to learn of Him so I can really know Him. I'm just so excited to read through the Book of Mormon again with this focus. It will bring some great spiritual experiences, I'm sure.

We had a really good week. We had two exchanges and some great lessons in our area. There just seems to be a lot going on, so everything that's stuffed into one week is hard to report on. I'll do my best to share the most important points from this past week.

I'll start with the exchanges.

We had an exchange with the Moorpark sisters on Tuesday. That was a treat, to say the least. I was able to work with Sister Stoker here in Ventura. I just love Sister Stoker so much. Being with her again reminded me a lot of the learning experiences I had as her trainer and the help that I received from the Lord. It was also good to talk with Sister Stoker about how things went when we were companions and share my feelings with her about it. She is an awesome missionary. The neatest thing was seeing how much she has grown since I trained her. She has so many strengths as a missionary - her tool belt is definitely full. We had a great day. We had 4 lessons and found a new investigator, as well. It was a bit difficult in lessons since we were working in my area, because that meant that I would take the lead more. She did really well still. She has always been so good at listening to what people say, internalizing it, and then following the Spirit to respond to their concerns or ask more questions. She always asks inspired questions that invite the Spirit. That's something I'm still really working on. Her goal for the day was to be more detailed in her teaching when we're out tracting and declaring. She did great with teaching the Restoration in declarations. When I was with her she would seem to run out of things to say, but now she just continues teaching people if they'll listen. She did great with her goal. If she saw that they had time and weren't going to slam the door, she'd go a little bit deeper in detail about the Restoration. That's how we were able to get a new investigator - she was teaching in detail. Another goal that she had for the day was to be the one to approach people on the street. She said that her companion always approaches people and she almost wishes that she wouldn't. I think it's great that she recognizes that and is working to overcome her fears. Sadly, it was raining the whole day on Wednesday, so there weren't any people outside. Sister Stoker is a strong, powerful missionary. She's still going through a hard time. She seems to be enjoying missionary work more now, but she told me that she is still having a hard time. She wants to feel like she's actually making a difference in these people's lives. We talked about that a lot, because that's been a concern that I've had, and I hope that my words of advice helped her. A few things that we discussed were slowing down in declarations and recognizing that you're talking to a person. Sometimes we get in a routine and just spew off a lot of information at people and don't take the time to check for understanding. She'll be able to adjust and get better at that. I'm just so grateful to have gone on exchanges with her. It's been so neat to go on exchanges with all of my old companions this transfer.

On Friday, we went to South Bakersfield and had exchanges with Sister Tagaloa and Sister Vandenhazel. I went with Sister Tagaloa for the day. She is from Samoa and is a convert. Her family converted before her, but then when she was 16 she was baptized. She's having a hard time. She talked to me about how she thinks a lot about going home and she's been very stressed this tansfer. She really wants Sister Vandenhazel to have a good last transfer and she wants her to know that she is loved. Sister Vandenhazel is going home at the end of the transfer and has struggled throughout her entire mission. I think that is so great of Sister Tagaloa. It just shows her selflessness. I just worry that she's not taking care of herself, emotionally, at the same time. We talked about it on Thursday night when I got there, but on Friday we didn't talk about it again. I just wanted to help Sister Tagaloa have a good day. I think she did. We had a few lessons and spent a lot of time out talking to people. One great thing about Sister Tagaloa is that she talks to literally everyone. I loved that! She doesn't care who they are, they need the gospel and she's going to share it with them. Her goal for the day was to teach to the commitment. She feels like people don't really understand why they should keep the commitments that they are left with. That was a good goal and she did well with it. In declarations she talked about the Book of Mormon and how important it is to read it to know if what we share is true. She always bears her testimony. It's wonderful and powerful. She has such great conviction as she tells people that she knows these things are true. I loved that, too! One thing that we discussed was slowing down when teaching. Sister Tagaloa is SO excited to tell people about the gospel, but they already have a hard time understanding her because her English pronunciation isn't so great, but then she's also speaking very fast. She agreed that she needs to slow down, because she noticed that a lot of people would turn to me and say, "What did she just say?" It may be good for her to have language study. She has a good vocabulary, but it's her pronunciation that could use some help. That would help her teach with more clarity. I enjoyed our day together and she said that she was so happy after working with me on Friday. I was glad to lift her spirits a bit so she can get through the rest of this transfer.

This past week, in our area, we taught Gabby and Skylar (twice), Sabrina, Elaine, Julia, we had our Book of Mormon class, Rhoda, Kristyn, Jessica, Jose (twice), Cryshauna, Jessica S., and Bob.

Last night after zone conference, we had a lesson with Gabby and Skylar. I've just been so excited about teaching them. I want them to accept this message so bad! We talked with them more about Christ's church and the great apostasy. Then, we watched the Restoration DVD to help them understand more. The Spirit was really strong in the room with them. I felt so much love for them as I was able to bear my testimony about receiving my own answer about Joseph Smith. I was 15 when I came to know that he was a prophet, so I can relate to them. Obviously, it's a little different since I was raised in the church, but we all are converts. We have to be. I just could feel how proud Heavenly Father is of them and how He wants them to be happy in their lives. They are such bright girls and they have a pure desire to know truth. They understand what we've taught them and know that it's up to them to find out. Gabby said the closing prayer and offered a simple, heartfelt prayer. She prayed that she could recognize if these things are true and she said she wants to know because she feels like this is a good message. That was pretty cool. When we got back in the car to go to our next appointment, I realized that I hadn't checked the phone all day since we were at zone conference and I hadn't looked at it on the way back! When I looked at the phone there was a text from Gabby, she was saying that she was grateful for us but didn't think they could be Mormon. I was so grateful that we hadn't seen that message. I think we were able to help answer her questions. I just hope she doesn't start doubting and drops us. She just needs to pray and read! It's so simple....I just wish everyone would do it. Why don't they? If they have faith in God they must know that He'll answer them, right? I don't know. I just hope we'll get to teach them again.

We had another great lesson last night with Jose. He's so quiet but he listens closely and he's smart. He understands what we're teaching and he told us he understands what a great difference this would make if it's true. When we talked with him more about the great apostasy, he said that the world today is still so confused. The great thing is that we don't have to be. It's our choice. The gospel brings so much clarity. It's always so powerful when we get to teach people who recognize the confusion in the world and that they no longer need to feel confused. I know that Heavenly Father loves all of His children just as much as He loved Joseph Smith. He answered Joseph Smith's prayer in a spectacular way, but I feel that the answers that I have received were spectacular, to me, as well. My favorite part of missionary work is feeling the love that God has for His children. I'm so grateful for that. Jose accepted a baptismal date and said that he wants to work toward being baptized on the 20th of April. I'm excited for him, because I really feel like he'll do his part. We'll see though.....he still has his agency!

This past week was great. I always say this, but there are just so many miracles, whether big or small, in this work.

I love you all! Thanks for your letters and especially your prayers!

Love,
Sister Bennett



P.S. - I got my shoes, both pairs, and they work great! Thanks so much, Mom.
P.P.S. - I got Jord's wedding announcement! He and Amanda look great! Jordan, you're one handsome redhead. I love that little black and white picture. It's so cute!
P.P.P.S. - The first presidency has changed the policy on emailing and we can now send and receive emails from friends and we can email converts. That last part is great! I'm not sure if I want my friends emailing me, but we'll see. I was wondering if you, Mom, can get me Tonya's email address since she emailed you a while ago when she made me missionary casserole.
P.P.P.P.S. - Can I get aunt Nicole’s mailing address. I never wrote her a thank you for the Christmas package she sent. I'm the worst.
 
 
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Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Reunited and It Feels So Good


March 4, 2013

Hey Mom, Dad, and everyone else.....

Ok, I'm sorry I didn't mention more about the Bakerfield mission opening up. I didn't have time last week and I hadn't read all of your emails yet. Basically, I feel torn about it. It would be cool to go and open a new mission, but it's Bakersfield...I mean come on! Also, I don't really want to be moved over because President Castro will be staying here. At first I thought that there would be no way that I'd go, because the switch isn't happening until July and I will only have like 3 months left at that point. However, we had dinner at the stake president's home, President Jones, and he talks to President Castro a ton. He's actually President's home teacher. haha. Anyway, President Jones told us that President Castro talked about how he's going to put two assistants out there and have the mission up and running, basically, in Bakersfield before the new mission president even gets there. That worries me because I'm a traveling sister. President Castro has two sets of traveling sisters, English and Spanish, and I think that may have been inspired when he did that. He may want to have a set of traveling sisters there for when the Bakersfield mission opens as well. Who knows what's going to happen. I'm just trying to not think about it at all. Whatever happens is what the Lord wants to happen and that's all that matters to me. I will do what He asks of me, but that isn't happening for another few months, so no worries anymore on my part. Those transfer calls in June will be the most nerve-racking calls of my life though, that's for sure, because whoever is in Bakersfield at the time of the switch will just be staying there. Crazy, but great! The Lord is hastening His work!

I had a really wonderful letter waiting for me here in Ventura when I got home from exchanges. It was from Brenna Lutz telling me about her mission call! She has been called to serve in the Utah Provo Mission! Isn't that awesome! She's going to be so great! She'll be speaking Spanish. The greatest thing about that is that I can see her in Provo while I'm at school! I'm totally going on splits with her! Hahah. I'm so proud of her. Obviously, I'm sure it was a bit of a shock for her at first, but she was so positive and optimistic about serving in Provo. It's the highest baptizing mission in the world....I would love to serve there! I love baptisms! Hahah.

We had a really great week. It went by so fast, but it seems like so much happened throughout the week. We have started again with exchanges, which is really great. It's so fun to get to go and work with the other sisters and I love it even more because we get to have really wonderful, spiritual experiences with them. I definitely think Heavenly Father was blessing me a lot this week, to lift my spirits because I felt the Spirit so much and just felt really good and happy this entire week.

Before I start the rest of my letter, I just want to share a cool miracle that happened just this morning. Sister Lillywhite and I were walking out to the car to come and email and a man named Ted stopped us. He said "I could tell you’re Mormons even if you didn't have your name tags on!" He said that he had talked to missionaries a lot of times, but he never had time to really engage in a conversation because he was always working. He wrote down his name and number and asked us to call him and set up an appointment so we, or whoever the missionaries in his area are, can meet with him. Well, sadly he isn't in our area, but it was still really neat! We usually don't talk to people in our apartment area because we get in trouble by the apartment manager, but this guy stopped us. He seemed genuinely interested in talking to the missionaries. I bet he'll get baptized. Miracle!

This week, in our area, we taught Tammy/Gabby/Skylar, Brother Dumond (less-active), Missy, Jessica, Sister Rous (less-active), Rich, the Biglers (less-active), Cryshauna, Richard, Bob, the Rabagos (returning to activity), and we had our new Book of Mormon class that we're teaching.

We started the week out really great last Monday night. We had Hermana Anderson with us for the night and we were just out trying to contact potential investigators. One of those potentials was Tammy. We went to her apartment and two girls opened the door - Gabby (17) and Skylar (14). They were so cute! They were really open with us as we talked to them about the gospel. They said that they used to go to church every Sunday and they really liked it a lot. Gabby also talked about remembering a service activity that they had done at their church and how fun it was to give service. They said that they wished they could go to church again, but their lives have been so crazy. They are both avid softball players and are super busy with that all week. On top of that, their mom is a single mom and works long hours every day. As we were wrapping up with them, their mom, Tammy, walked up. She was talking on the phone as we were setting up a return appointment with the girls. Right before we were about to leave them with a prayer, Tammy walked up and said "hello." We shared our message with her, briefly, and asked if we could leave them with a prayer and come back in a week. She then invited us in and we talked a little bit more before saying a prayer with them. It was great! Tammy seemed more skeptical; she said she had her own church, but she still said we can come back. The girls seemed very excited. I'm really looking forward to going and teaching them tonight. I just love teaching youth, so I hope their mom will allow them to learn.

The next morning, Tuesday, we were again trying to contact some potential investigators and we stopped by an apartment right around the area where Jimmy lives. A girl named Missy answered the door. She is possibly in her 30s and she is from American Samoa. How cool is that? She told us that she had a lot of family and friends who are members of the church and that the missionaries had visited their home before. Right now, Missy is living with her aunt and going to school, but she is planning on going back home to American Samoa sometime soon. As we talked more with her about the Book of Mormon, she opened up to us and told us that she had always noticed a difference in her cousins and friends who are members of the church. She saw a light in them and a joy that she couldn't seem to attain. Then she said that she really wants what they have and that she knows it is because they are members of the church. We invited her to be baptized and she once again said "Yes, I would because I really do want what they have." I just felt so grateful in that moment to know what the difference is between Missy and her cousins who are members - the gift of the Holy Ghost. We have the Spirit with us and I know that other people recognize that. That's why people always like the missionaries. Not because we're great ourselves, but because we have the Spirit with us and the mantle of our calling as representatives of Christ! We invited Missy to join us for church but she said even though she wanted to come, she didn't think her aunt would like it (the aunt that she is living with). That may be a barrier for Missy, but hopefully when we go back the aunt will be home and we can teach her as well. That would definitely take care of the barrier. We're teaching her tomorrow morning, so I'm excited to help her progress toward baptism.

On our way out of the lesson with Missy, we saw the assistants standing out by the street. When we first got to the area that we were working in that day, we saw the assistants in the park teaching a lesson to Jimmy! We were really excited about that, so when we saw them standing outside we went over to talk with them and ask them how Jimmy is doing. It was so great to hear all of the updates on him. He is so prepared to receive the gospel. They told us that Jimmy expressed a great desire to be baptized now, but he understands that he needs to learn more from the missionaries first to prepare. He also went to family home evening the night before and loved it! We were told that when he walked in to FHE, he saw 5 of his friends from high school. That's a miracle because Sister Lillywhite and I were praying so much that he would know someone who is a member and can help him as he progresses. The greatest part was when Elder Cary told us about Jimmy walking up to one of his close friends from high school and saying to him, "You're a member? (This guy was a convert who just got off of his mission) Why didn't you tell me about this? You knew this whole time and didn't share it with me?" That made me almost sad, because it caused me to reflect on my high school experience and the opportunities I had to share the gospel with my friends. I hope there won’t come a day when someone walks up to me and says "You knew this whole time and didn't share it with me?" That would break my heart. The best part was that after Jimmy said that, he then replied again and said, "That's ok. I'm here now." That must have been a beautiful moment. I felt the Spirit a lot just as I heard the story from Elder Cary. I just love Jimmy a lot, and I'm glad that the Lord has placed these people in his life to help him as he comes unto Christ through baptism into His church. This work sure is amazing.

Alright, so now on to reporting about the exchanges we went on this week. We went to San Luis Obispo and Santa Maria on Thursday and Friday. The weather was beautiful but the work was even better!

I worked with Sister Putnam in San Luis Obispo. It was so great to be reunited with her for a day! I loved being her companion, and it was neat to see the changes in her since the time that she was my companion. We had a day filled with tracting. That was ok, though, because Sister Putnam's goal was to teach the entire Restoration in declarations. It was an interesting day. I'll leave it at that. We had some interesting run-ins with people and a lot of door slams, which I haven't experienced for a while, I guess, because it was very surprising. Sister Putnam is good at teaching to needs because she is such a good listener. She's able to take in what the person is saying and then figure out what their true need is. I could tell because I saw the light go on in people's eyes when she started testifying to the need that Sister Putnam had discovered. That's one thing that I learned from her, ask more questions in declarations so you can meet needs. She struggled a bit with teaching the entire Restoration. She was definitely trying to do it, but it seemed like she wasn't really sure how to. We talked a lot about how to approach teaching in declarations while still trying to meet their needs. I talked to her about just starting to teach the Restoration right away and asking questions as you go, because I know that the Spirit will testify to them according to their needs and it will also testify to us so we can understand their needs. She'll do well with that, she just needs to keep working on it. One thing that I also talked to her about is being more persistent. The funny part is that she knows it. There were a few times when we finished talking to someone and she would say, I should've kept going and not taken no for an answer so quickly. I agreed and was thinking about what Elder Holland said in Preach My Gospel - the people we talk to may not understand the importance of what we share, but we sure do. We need to act like we do and do our best to help them recognize the importance of the message. Sister Putnam is doing really well. I can see that she is a lot more obedient now and that she has seen blessings in the work as a result of her obedience. That was nice to notice, because that was something that she struggled with at first when she was my companion. Now it's obvious that it's a part of who she is as a missionary.

On Friday I worked with Sister Wilkinson in Santa Maria. That's two of my old companions in two days! That was really neat, and this week I get to work with Sister Stoker. If only Sister Tippetts could come and be my companion for a day, then I would have worked with all of my companions this transfer. Anyway, it was really good for Sister Wilkinson and I to work together. We struggled a bit at the end of our time together as companions, so it was nice to talk about things and about ways that we've grown since we were companions. I was amazed at how much Sister Wilkinson has changed as a missionary. She is more calm and collected, but even more determined and diligent. She is so open about her love for the gospel and she testifies with sincerity to everyone she meets. She really does talk to everyone. We stopped for lunch at Taco Bell and she talked to two people while I was ordering my food! That's great! We had some really powerful declarations as we taught and testified of the Restoration of the gospel. I seriously couldn't take the smile off of my face that whole day, because it was just that great. Sister Wilkinson's goal was to find the needs of people in declarations and teach to their needs by asking more questions. When Sister Wilkinson puts her mind to something, she does it. That's one thing that always has stuck out to me about her. She applies what she learns and when she sets a goal she doesn't forget about it until she achieves it. She was doing her best to ask a lot of questions, but one thing that I talked about with her was finding a balance between asking questions and quickly referring to the message of the Restoration. We still need to make sure to be teaching people the doctrine, and if we don't get to it quickly enough we'll miss our chance to teach them about it. She was able to find the balance while I was there, because I quickly started teaching about the Restoration after she would ask questions. She said that she'll work on just starting to teach more quickly and asking questions throughout the declaration to understand their needs better. I am so grateful for Sister Wilkinson. She is so loving and just made me feel so good about myself. I know that she's that way with all of her companions and all of the missionaries - especially the sisters. She is so obedient and focused on the work, and I'm grateful to have spent the day learning from her and hopefully giving her some help with things that she struggles with.

It was really such a great week. There are so many miracles in this work that it's blowing my mind! I'm just so grateful for all of the amazing experiences I'm having...whether they're hard or not.

I love you all sooooooooo much!

Love,
Sister Bennett


P.S. - Funny story time!!!! Ok, so while I was on exchanges with Sister Wilkinson in Santa Maria, we were going to contact a referral we had received. There was a gate outside of these people's home and I was too short to reach over and unlatch it, so Sister Wilkinson worked on it. While she was trying to open it, I noticed barking and turned around and saw these two little dumb dogs, one was a chihuahua and the other one was some fluffy little white dog (they were both ugly...because they're dogs). Well, they were annoying me, so I did what I always do when I see these pestery little dogs....I juked at them (aka - I did a quick little move like I was going to run after them...you know like a cut in basketball to get open or something). Well that was funny, both of them took off and Sister Wilkinson got the gate open then and we went to try this referral. No one was home, so we were walking back to the car and these two little dogs were in the driveway, at the house next-door, barking at us again. I turned to Sister Wilkinson and said "Watch this" and did the juke move toward them again. They ran away and Sister Wilkinson and I laughed and continued walking back to the car. Then Sister Wilkinson, who was walking a little in front of me, looked back and said "Look!" Now there were three little dogs and they were coming at me! I stopped in the road and tried to scare them away again with the "juke." It worked on the first two dogs that we had seen, but the new dog just kept coming at me. It was seriously going for my ankles! I tried to scare it away, but it was about to bite me so I kicked it in the head and started running for the car! Hahahaha! As I was running past Sister Wilkinson, I briefly saw her facing the dogs and saw her bent over waving her arm or something. I had no idea what she was doing, but I wasn't going to stop to check. When we both got back in the car, Sister Wilkinson said that she had waved the Book of Mormon at them and they ran away! Hahahah. Isn't that hilarious! It was also funny when Sister Wilkinson told me that she had thought about how they might come after us with our backs turned, because she remembered a story I had told her about Erin when she was in Guatemala. You know, when Erin turned her back and some little dog got up the courage to run up and bite her. Sister Wilkinson just thought that she needed to beware of that ever since she had heard Erin's story. hahaha. Fun stuff! My adrenaline was definitely pumping. Hahahaha.

P.P.S. - The picture attached to the other emails is of our exchange in Santa Maria with Sister Wilkinson and Romero. We were all wearing red to bed that night! Nice!
 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 

Bakersfield Mission?!? Uh OH!


 

February 25, 2013

 
Dearest Family!

Bakersfield is going to be its own mission! Ahhhh! I'm super excited, actually, but nervous! I don't want to be moved over, but we'll see what happens. I'm glad to go wherever the Lord needs me. I don't have much time to write, so this one won’t be the longest...but it will suffice.  

I feel like this past week I haven't been able to gather my thoughts. I have been feeling, as I've mentioned in previous letters, like I'm plateauing. As a missionary, that's the last thing that I want to be thinking. I'm working hard to continue growing, but it seems like my efforts haven't been placed in the right areas or they haven't been enough. I've been studying the past few days about receiving revelation and I have also been reading in my patriarchal blessing a lot in order to seek guidance. I have realized that I need to be more actively seeking what the Lord wants me to change rather than doing what I desire or what I think is best. I'm glad that I've come to realize that because when I go by my own list of "things that Sister Bennett needs to change" I become quickly overwhelmed. I find myself, in those times, only focusing on how far I have to go to become like the Savior. It makes me feel as though I am disappointing my Father in Heaven because time after time I make the same errors. As I studied my patriarchal blessing, I was able to recognize promised blessings that I have yet to access, and I know that I can have those things present in my life if I will seek after them. Lately, I have been able to understand better what these wonderful people we're teaching must go through. At first, they look at the changes ahead of them as large mountains to climb without a rope or without a harness. That is how I have allowed myself to feel for the past few weeks, but through many sincere prayers and more focused study, I have re-established something that I already knew. The Savior is always standing on the tops of the mountains in our lives and attached to Him, always, is the rope of the atonement. Some of the struggle in our lives is trying to understand how to use that rope to climb up and over each mountain, but I know that our Heavenly Father isn't going to leave us alone or confused. As we actively seek Him, we will recognize how the atonement can be used for each specific and personal mountain that we must overcome. As we more fully understand how to use the atonement, it is then up to us to take one step at a time, clinging to the atonement. As I think about it, I recognize that when you literally hike up a mountain, it may seem, at times, like you are making no progress at all, but as you keep pushing forward and take only a few brief moments to look back you can recognize the progress you have made. That's what I am now striving to do. I need to understand how the atonement can be used in my life, and as I work to overcome my weaknesses, I just need to keep my eyes forward until He tells me that I can look back to see how far I have come. 

We met this last week with President Castro to talk about exchanges that will be taking place and to receive counsel from him, I felt the Spirit infusing me with an even greater drive to make changes in my life. At first after the meeting, I just felt overwhelmed. I didn't understand how I would be able to really give the sisters what they need from me. I just want them to be able to have powerful experiences on exchanges with me, and I want them to be able to go away from the exchanges with a desire to change and grow. I recognize now, after Sister Lillywhite said it to me, that I need to not be so hard on myself. I remember that President Castro had given me similar counsel when he issued the call to me to become a traveling sister. I expect a lot out of myself, but I know that I cannot and will not be perfect. However, with the Savior's help and the guidance of the Spirit I know that He will use me to take care of these sisters. I'm just going to focus on one sister at a time as I prepare to go on exchanges with each. I know that I have been called to serve as a traveling sister because I have certain gifts and abilities that will be able to bless these sisters. I am grateful for the spiritual gifts that I have been blessed with and I'm excited to seek guidance on what other gifts I need and can acquire to bless others’ lives more. I was glad to receive the direction concerning our areas and that these sisters are a part of our teaching pool. I have been focusing on them a lot, but at times I felt that I didn't know who I should focus on more - the investigators we're teaching or the sisters. Now, I just view them as all being investigators who have specific needs and challenges that I can help with. I am just grateful to be able to serve in this mission with these great sisters here. I love them so much and as I have been praying for them that love has only become greater. 

This week we taught Jimmy, Sabrina, Lisa, Kristyn, Bob, Kelly, Matilde, the Evangelistas, the Biglers (less-active), Sister Rous (less-active), Bette (less-active), and the Rabagos (less-active).

I really love Jimmy. He is just such an inherently good person and I'm so grateful that we were guided by the Spirit to find him. He needs the gospel. He doesn't live in the best situation and doesn't have the best friends, but I can see right now, in my mind, what his life will be like as he continues to progress in the gospel and is baptized. Jimmy is 20 years-old. He's Hispanic and is renting a room in his friend's apartment so that his mom doesn't have to worry about providing for him. This past week we taught him the Plan of Salvation and it was so amazing to just follow the Spirit throughout his lesson. We were able to ask questions and read scriptures that really got Jimmy to think, and the most amazing part was listening to him talk through things and figure things out for himself. Then, when he would realize something, his face would light up and he would just say "Wow, that's powerful." I can feel how much Heavenly Father loves Him. He is one of the Father's choice sons and Jimmy's future is so bright with the gospel lighting it up. Sadly, for us, we won’t be teaching him anymore. We passed him off to the young single adult ward elders on Saturday. I know that is what's best for Jimmy. He'll be able to make some really good friends who have good morals just like Jimmy. On Saturday night, we had dinner with the Stassforth family and their daughter and her boyfriend are in the singles ward. We were able to talk to them about Jimmy, and Chandler, the boyfriend, said that he will definitely get in contact with the elders and go to the appointments they have with Jimmy. I was so grateful to hear that because I was praying a lot that day about Jimmy and that he would be taken care of. I have felt a lot of comfort about it and I know that he is in good hands. 

 Well, I seem to have run out of time, but the work is going well in our area. Sister Lillywhite is a great example to me and I'm doing my best to learn the things that I need to from her before she leaves. It's hard though. It's like trying to take a drink from a fire hydrant. I'm doing my best. 

 
I love you all,

Sister Bennett